Sunday, November 11, 2012

#067 Which Of Your Lord's Blessings Would You Deny?

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Hows everything going? Is everything okey? Alhamdulillah if everything went well, if not try to be patient. Selawath. We were sent to this world to be tested, so nobody are excepted from this test in their life, no one. 
Life in this world is given by Allah to us that He may test our Faith and see even though He already knows through His Divine knowledge, that who from among His slave acts according to His Will and Permission. 

Yet, in busy preparing and managing my wedding preparations, I admit I slipping myself to put Allah as my priority. I search Allah when I have problems, I find Him when things went wrong, I put up both of my hands together when I depressed, I mention His name when I have no one with me. Allahuakbar! Im being so self fish. I am. I forgot that humans were never destined to achieve eternity in this world, none from our elders got the leave to stay here forever and no one from us and the following generations can have this opportunity. Oh Allah, please forgive me.

What happened to me during these days was, people came over to my house, asking me how should they help me for the preparations, and I had manyyyyy things to be settled down before the wedding day! I really need help. I need to clean up the rooms, preparing for the hantarans, the door gifts, foods for the guests, my wedding dress etc etc and I'm reallyyyyy enjoying whatever things I do and trying to give the best for everyone. Yet after putting a lot of effort, people started complaining that the result turned out badly. They said that my dress is too simple, even theirs better than mine. My hand bouquet was'nt look beautiful, my hantarans was not pretty. Hearing that, every heart surely felt soo sad. Two weeks left and that's what I get from them. In stead of complaining, can you guys comes with the solution tho? My mind kinda stressed thinking of how to overcome those problems. Do I need to re-do all these things again? Which I have to spend money some more? What about the time left? Or, I am just too emotional in hearing what people said? 

I was'nt in the mood for quite few hours, lending on my bed, doing noting, staring on my wall, I closed my eyes, I opened it back, I whispered to my ear, ''maybe this is how Allah teaches me for what I have done''. Allah, please forgive me. I started to realized, that I have to be great full for what ever I have right now. Don't care what people say. It's end nowhere. I have parent who always support me on what ever I am doing. Knowing that I currently am not working, they don't even bother spending thousands of money for my wedding. Brothers who always there whenever I needed them, lovely sisters who always gives positives views and ideas on the wedding stuffs. ''Then Which Of Your Lord's Blessings Would You Deny, Maryam?''

A good believer is aware of the fact that life is a test and the difficulties he faces here are part of the test and that he will be graded according to his performance in that test, and all that he endures with patience and faith, will be a means of getting higher ranks and rewards in Hereafter. :)

Oh Allah, please make me a servant continuously remembered only for loving You. Ameen.


Mizz Que said...

dear...bertenang ye..slow2..i know u can do it n face it. anything will be fine..Q pun da pernah hadapi saat2 tue..mmg pening tp insyaAllah semuanya akan berakhir dengan kebahgiaan n senyuman..jgn stress2 ye bakal pengantin.. miss u n love u..

mohd helmy paijau said...

akak,jgn stress tau..bnyk lah berdoa..